It's also immensely sad to see young familes go through that kind of ordeal...I could never imagine the anguish that my parents went through over 25 years ago watching my pediatrician code me in the delivery room...I guess I turned out all right. I feel a deep attachment to the field and a fondness for everyone in the unit. It's truely a wonderful profession that they practice.
At the same time, I had this weird identity crisis thing going on every time that I would reach into an incubator to examine a baby with tubes coming out of everywhere. It was like looking back 25 years ago onto what my life was, and could have been. Rounds for the past three days have been a little too personal of an experience for me to even consider as a career option. I wouldn't be able to deal with it the first time I lost a kid...which happens. Having to code a kid in the delivery room would probably be just too much for me to handle.
But at the same time it has alot of the benefits of EM (proceedures, good lifestyle, portable practice) that I like. I just don't think I could hang through 3 years of gen peds only to have to deal while being emotionally invested in those kids for the rest of my life. It just hits a little too close to home for me.